That is it!
No more!
Screw you all, I am frickin’ giving up!!!
Sorry, but I’m so stressed I’m pretty sure there’s a puddle forming at my feet from my brain leaking out my ears!
Just…!
Just…!
AOPDSFGHPOGHSAONSAGONHJDSHDGONSAGON!!!!!!!!!
-explodes-
-.-; Sorry, its just that I naturally have dramatically high stress levels and lately they’ve just been getting higher and higher and higher and HIGHER!
It’s just that I have to deal with school and I’ve started work and my truck is a bunch of junk metal and I’ve entered a writing contest with a deadline coming up REALLY soon and my heart is jumbled full of depression, love, hate, and so much more!!!
T-T I really just want to pry out my heart so I don’t have to feel anything anymore and my brain so I don’t have to think and be responsible for my actions anymore… Once those are out of the way I just want to curl up in the dark space under my bed and just stay there forever and ever…
*sigh
Anywho, feel free to ignore everything I just said… I just needed to rant for a bit and I don’t really care who reads it or how they react… Just…
*sigh
Yeah…

SO for some reason, no idea why though, I’ve been thinking about how I’d like my life to go post-HS. I mean other than college, ‘cause I’ve had that planned out for like two years now…
I plan to go to college for at least two years and try to get a dual major in Literature and Government and a dual-minor in philosophy and mythology, or a teaching degree.
But I mean my plans on jobs, marriage, kids, etc.
Here’s kind of what I came up with…
[[NO LAUGHING]]
//JOBS\\
-Writer
-Teacher at an independent charter HS (like mine)
-Color specialist in a hair salon
-Own my own bookshop or restaurant
//DREAM HOME\\
I want to live somewhere with room for guests but cozy and comfortable at the same time. Kind of messy and warm, where people will always feel comfortable. Has to have somewhere to work and stash my books, as well as have a bedroom just right for a couple to cuddle up and sleep in or spend the whole night keeping each other pleasured. ^.~
//WEDDING\\
Small, cheap reception… Maybe just get eloped.
Then spend all the money on the reception! A band, a bar, somewhere to have it all, etc!
//KIDS\\
If I have kids I’d like to have a boy and a girl, girl first preferably. I’d name her Jude, middle name Elaine, and hope she has my mom’s or my eyes.
The boy I’ll either let my husband name or name Jasper I hope he grows up to be cute and respectful.
//DEATH\\
Painless, preferably in my sleep when I’m old and my children have children of their own to worry about instead of wasting their life mourning for me.
//OTHER\\
I hope to travel a bit…

That's all, hope you weren't to bored by it all...

YOUR GUY SIDE:
[x] You love hoodies.
[x] You love jeans.
[] Dogs are better than cats.
[] It's hilarious when people get hurt.
[x] you've played with/against boys on a team.
[] Shopping is torture.
[] Sad movies suck.
[] You own/ed an X-Box.
[] Played with Hotwheel cars as a kid.
[] At some point in time you wanted to be a firefighter.
[x] You own/ed a DS, PS2 or Sega.
[x] You used to be obsessed with Power Rangers.
[] You watch sports on TV.
[x] Gory movies are cool.
[x] You go to your dad for advice.
[] You own like a trillion baseball caps.
[] You like going to high school football games.
[] You used to/do collect football cards
[] Baggy pants are cool to wear.
[x] It's kinda weird to have sleepovers with a bunch of people.
[x] Green, black, red, blue, or silver are one of your favorite colors.
[x] You love to go crazy and not care what people think.
[] Sports are fun
[] Talk with food in your mouth.
[] Wear boxers or Girl Boxer
[] Sleep with your socks on at night.

now add up the numbers
total: 15
multiply it by 5.
total: 50%

YOUR GIRL SIDE.
[x] you wear lip gloss/stick.
[] You love to shop.
[x] You wear eyeliner.
[] You wear the color pink
[x] Go to your mom for advice.
[] You consider cheerleading a sport.
[] You hate wearing the color black.
[x] You like hanging out at the mall.
[] You like getting manicures and/or pedicures.
[x] You like wearing jewelry.
[] Skirts are a big part of your wardrobe.
[]Shopping is one of your favorite hobbies.
[] You don't like the movie Star Wars.
[x]You are/were in gymnastics//dance.
[x] It takes you around one hour to shower, get dressed, and make-up
[x] You smile a lot more than you should.
[x] You have more than 10 pairs of shoes.
[x] You care about what you look like.
[] You like wearing dresses when you can.
[x] You like wearing body spray/perfume/cologne.
[x] You love the movies.
[x] Used to play with dolls as little kid
[] Like putting make-up on someone else for the joy of it.
[] Like taking pictures of yourself with your cell phone/camera when you're bored.

now add up the number
Total: 5
and multiply it by 5.
total: 65%


...Is anyone else noticing that doesn't add up to 100%?

Excuse the random journal title, it's all I could think of...
Anywho! Halloween's this Wednesday!! I can't wait!
I'm gonna go trick-or-treat with some friends and spend the rest of the nght watching horror flicks and anime, what are you up to?
Also I'm about to submit a bunch of new art in a style I've been working on, I hope you all like it!
That's about it, just wanted to say I'm alive and what's going on currently...
BYE!
CNM

This is horrible!
It's terrible!
It's nepherious!

Okay, maybe not the last one...
So I've got Pnemonea.
I thought it was just a cold at first...
I was feeling great and went to school, suddenly I took a turn for the worst at school. My mom got worried and took me to the doctor and diagnosed it.
Now I am stuck at home taking a handful of pills and a spoon of cough medicine ever 6-7 hours and drinking about 4 galleons of water an hour.
-.- I've never peed so much in one day....
Anywho! SO I'm going absolutely looney sitting in my house all day cooped up and watching soap operas because there's nothing on and I'm out of books!
HELP ME!!!
Please in the name of everything anyone could ever consider holy!
Either put me out of my misery or help me be entertained!!
PLEASE!!!!